PLEASE HELP ME someone has changed. ?

holy crap. your desciption of your friend seems like what iam becoming and i hate it. i just act like that to make people talk to me. i thought it would help my depression so i dont try to kill myself again. i just dont want to go unnoticed and left out from everything again. if you have any advice for me on becoming a shy nice guy with alot of friends and well known instead of being a jerk i would love to hear it. thank you for helping me before its too late